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Name: Eric
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 5/30/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: Hanging out// Football// Basketball// Studyin to be a paramedic// God// Church// Girls// striving to daily live for Jesus
Expertise: making friends, talking, making coffee, loving people, hanging out, not studying
Occupation: Student
Industry: San Diego State
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  sunwhosaywat
Member Since:
1/7/2004
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Please keep me in your prayers! God has blessed me an immeasurable amount. His grace, His Son, is more than enough to suffice for my puny little life and its indulgences. Therefore, I want to use my gifts and blessings in this lifetime so that I am a living testimony of Christ's love for me!
Please pray for:
1) Acceptance into the SDSU nursing program.
2) Receive a Medical Waiver for the Army ROTC so that I can contract.
3) That I will be content with whatever the outcome.
4) To continue to live life recognizing that I am of the spirit and not of the flesh, always remembering that it is through Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior.
1For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. 22If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! 23I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; 24but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. 25Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, 26so that through my being with you again your joy in Christ Jesus will overflow on account of me.
- Philippians 1:21-26 (Paul writing to the church of Philippi, which he created through God's sovereign will, while in prison - Doesn't that little bit of info give this passage even more juice?!)
By the way does anyone have the old praise song "Christ in me is to live, to die is gain" ?!?! | | |
| I'm so broke. I don't know what to think or feel. I'm utterly confused. Why am I this way?!
God is sooo good to me. He blessed me with knowledge and wisdom. He blessed me with Christ. He's blessed me with all that I have.
I, on the other hand, suck! I sin against Him. I don't think about Him. I don't desire to read the Bible and when I do, it feels so fake. I don't pray as much as I should. I live according to my desires. I suck.
Yet, this is what Jesus came to die for. His death on the cross delivered me from all these things and more. SO WHY CAN'T I DESIRE HIM?!?! When my dad loves me I love him back. When i screw up I feel horrible. When he does something for me I wanna give him something in return.
I'm such a horrible son. I dunno what to do. I'm physically out of shape. I'm mentally becoming slush. I'm spiritually dried up. If I truly loved God, I would start working out and represent God physically through having a healthy body. If I truly loved God and understood his grace, I would be spiritually hungry and read His word daily for hours. If I was truly living for God, I would be disciplined mentally like I used to be when I was an Air Force Cadet. I would be waking up early, eating healthy, studying hard and getting straight A's, disciplined, and organized.
Its interesting how when I am motivated to be something or to do something I give it my all. When I was doing the Air Force thing I was a straight A student, on my way to being healthy. I was focused, organized, and disciplined. WHY CAN'T I BE THIS WAY RIGHT NOW BECAUSE OF GOD?!?! Why am I driven to do things when something of the world motivates me. In the end, without Christ, its all worthless!! But I desire to do better when Christ is out of the picture.
I am driven by VERY SELFISH motives. I wanna get away. I wanna go away for several days and cry to God for mercy. I wanna cry to God and ask that he bless me with wisdom. I am so distracted (even now with xanga) with music and movies, etc. Its ridiculous how simple we are. I can totally see how we are compared to sheeps in the Bible. I am mislead or distracted by the tiniest most miniscule things imaginable. Its pathetic and disgusting. Is this all I accumulate to? A mumbling fool that whines and complains about sinfulness yet unable to do anything about it. Is this all I am? Is there no more to me? I tell God that I trust Him and don't care if He has planned for me to be a bum in this life time. Yet, the more I think about it and the more I see how it is very possible. I fear it. I fear the life of a bum, a life full of struggles and sadness.
God I'm so frustrated!! Maybe there is a deeper problem. Tell me what it is, am I still too prideful?! Am I still "protecting" myself?
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| When is it right to leave a church.? From what I've been taught, the only time one is in the right to leave the church is when the church is not preaching the gospel from the bible as God has put it. BUT, what about if you feel like you aren't growing? What if the leadership is unwilling to progress in forming structure and accountability within the church? What if you have a GUT FEELING that this church isn't for you?! I capitalized "gut feeling" because that CAN be wrong, but how do you know for sure?! Furthermore, with my argument above, the church would bark back at me saying, "you are imperfect therefore your feeling is imperfect". They are right! What am I supposed to say then? I understand, the church might have been God-centered and "right" at one point, but once something goes awry, are we supposed to accept that this is still a church in a sinners world? Therefore we should understand the church is imperfect? If we can not deal with it here, it will most likely come up in any other church and so we are to continue to struggle and persevere until God fixes the church? I mean where is the line drawn? I used to full-heartedly believe that the only reason to leave is if the gospel is not preached from the word of God. However, I've started to stray away from that. What about a brothers stagnant spiritual state of being? Is it fully his fault for not trying hard enough? Then what does "trying hard enough" mean?! There are people that are stuck in a rut for years and want to get out but FEELS like there is no help. "Trust God!", they say, but they don't do anything. (Damn, I'm goin on a rant.) For some odd reason this has popped into my head again. I struggled with this a couple years ago and it sort of dissipated, but it has resurfaced. I think it is important that people don't leave a church because they aren't as popular as they want to be, "no one is reaching out to me" or "there is no love here". That bullshit can piss me off! Therefore I agree with those that say don't leave because you feel this and that. YET, sometimes, I FEEL or BELIEVE that our feelings can be right! So as much as people should stay with a church even if they are spiritually stuck, I believe there is a certain point where you have every right to leave because the church isn't helping you grow.
Please be reminded, it is 3AM and I am tired. I am horrible in english and I have the worst diction. Please read with understanding and if there are any confusions about what I said. DON'T JUMP TO CONCLUSIONS AND THINK I'M WACK, STUPID, and whatever else you might think. ASK ME! Maybe this can be a future discussion. Refer me to the bible and show me where I may find answers.
In the end, like I always say. God is GOOD! I am not. I am an idiot that knows nothing and is merely trying to do what is right, but continually failing. I find hope and know of my assured salvation through the one and only Son of God, Jesus Christ, who died on the cross for my sins and conquered death and sin and hell all at once. For those that believe in him, we are saved because he has done this. There is NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING we can possibly and impossibly do to achieve the right to say "I am right" or "I understand" without the word of God. HAH, EVEN WITH the word of God, we are idiots! We have been, we are, and we will always be...until the second coming that is, and even then I wonder, will we be mindless brainwashed mumbling bumbling God glorifying foot soldiers? I don't know and that's another separate topic that I want to discuss, but will not get us anywhere.
Good night...Good morning...whatever. Late.
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| and then ya die - Nas
That is, for some. For me it's a blessing full of struggles that teach me perseverance and then ya live forever... only by His grace
OneLove, Christ
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| - self absorbed
- self reliant
- prideful
- lazy
- bitter
- materialistic
- lack of prayer
- lack of reading
- worthless
- wretched
- sinner
LOVED...yet still unwanting. God have mercy. Change my heart, for I am still unwilling.
Righteousness Through Faith
21But now a righteousness from God, apart from law, has been made known, to which the Law and the Prophets testify. 22This righteousness from God comes through faith in Jesus Christ to all who believe. There is no difference, 23for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God, 24and are justified freely by his grace through the redemption that came by Christ Jesus. 25God presented him as a sacrifice of atonement,[a] through faith in his blood. He did this to demonstrate his justice, because in his forbearance he had left the sins committed beforehand unpunished.
-Romans 3:21-25
Romans 4
Abraham Justified by Faith
1What then shall we say was gained by Abraham, our forefather according to the flesh? 2For if Abraham was justified by works, he has something to boast about, but not before God. 3For what does the Scripture say? "Abraham believed God, and it was counted to him as righteousness." 4Now to the one who works, his wages are not counted as a gift but as his due. 5And to the one who does not work but believes in him who justifies the ungodly, his faith is counted as righteousness, 6just as David also speaks of the blessing of the one to whom God counts righteousness apart from works:
7 "Blessed are those whose lawless deeds are forgiven,
and whose sins are covered;
8blessed is the man against whom the Lord will not count his sin." 9Is this blessing then only for the circumcised, or also for the uncircumcised? We say that faith was counted to Abraham as righteousness. 10How then was it counted to him? Was it before or after he had been circumcised? It was not after, but before he was circumcised. 11 He received the sign of circumcision as a seal of the righteousness that he had by faith while he was still uncircumcised. The purpose was to make him the father of all who believe without being circumcised, so that righteousness would be counted to them as well, 12and to make him the father of the circumcised who are not merely circumcised but who also walk in the footsteps of the faith that our father Abraham had before he was circumcised The Promise Realized Through Faith 13For the promise to Abraham and his offspring that he would be heir of the world did not come through the law but through the righteousness of faith. 14 For if it is the adherents of the law who are to be the heirs, faith is null and the promise is void. 15For the law brings wrath, but where there is no law there is no transgression.
16That is why it depends on faith, in order that the promise may rest on grace and be guaranteed to all his offspring—not only to the adherent of the law but also to the one who shares the faith of Abraham, who is the father of us all, 17as it is written, "I have made you the father of many nations"—in the presence of the God in whom he believed, who gives life to the dead and calls into existence the things that do not exist. 18In hope he believed against hope, that he should become the father of many nations, as he had been told, "So shall your offspring be." 19He did not weaken in faith when he considered his own body, which was as good as dead (since he was about a hundred years old), or when he considered the barrenness of Sarah’s womb. 20No distrust made him waver concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong in his faith as he gave glory to God, 21fully convinced that God was able to do what he had promised. 22That is why his faith was "counted to him as righteousness." 23But the words "it was counted to him" were not written for his sake alone, 24but for ours also. It will be counted to us who believe in him who raised from the dead Jesus our Lord, 25 who was delivered up for our trespasses and raised for our justification --Romans 4:1-25
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